Yesterday, I uploaded a post complete with a pic, funny sayings, deep reflective prose AND apologetic prose - i.e. "I promise not to use parentheses and segues because I know it annoys some of you fine folks. PS I have been reflective about the Thing-In-My-Head. PS 2 I wish I was funnier the last couple of days but I am not because I am reflective. PS 3 Here's a sweet picture. PS 4 I am reflective."
So, last night, I had a major case of insomnia (hate it when that happens), went to update something in the post (because I am ANAL and didn't like a freaking semi colon or something equally as inane) and I think I deleted something-or-other ... so, it's late and at this point, the only thing I am going to repeat is the sweet picture ...i.e. of the Super Adorable Happy Lamb because frankly, in my humble view, no matter how shitty your day, when you look at this pic, it just kind of puts it all in perspective right? :-)
Voila ... Le Super Cute Agneau ... I mean, really .. how cute is this sweet furry innocent thing?? Totally unrelated and random to tonight's post, but it's my blog and I feel petulant ce soir ...alors, VOILA! Le Super Cute Lamb!
And ... after baring my soul to y'all hier soir (last night) - as they say in certain parts of this fine continent (and in France and au Quebec) - only to find that Yours Truly inadvertently deleted the Entire-Soul-Baring text after click, click, clicking on my humble keypad for a couple of hours last night ... well ..... heavy, heavy sigh ...onwards and upwards we go! (For those fine folks for whom I had written yesterday's post i.e. without parentheses and without segues - my humblest apologies)
In short - and truly I mean to keep this short tonight (The Gal Who Cried Wolf)- I only have a couple of observations/comments/minor soul-barings... first, this is indeed a journey. I am indeed trying to stay positive in all facets of This Journey, and yet, there will be times - as is the normal cycle - when I will feel reflective and introspective about Things In General (yes, Proper Noun) - it's just a normal part of the cycle and process. Second, there are those of you who have kindly, timidly, sweetly reached out and asked and/or stated that you were not quite sure what you could do/say to help/make things better. Please know that it's really not that complex. That you are reading this blog is amazing support - truly! - an occasional email/text/smile - it's really that simple. And after all, everyone is busy with their lives, with their children/parents/lives/day-to-day activity ... life goes on! :-) ... And finally, today more than ever, I am unbelievably blessed with the sense of deep-rooted, visceral, enveloping knowledge and comfort that whatever happens to me, all will be well ...hard to explain, but whatever happens, it will be ok ...so there.
On to more shallow - and happier!! - notes. The Cancerella branded T's arrived today - YEAH! Kiss my ASTROCYTOMA, Baby!! (Pardon my candour/candor/francais!) ... thinking of some creative charity functions where Mon Amour et moi and our super fabulous friends (i.e. YOU) can pitch these, first and foremost to benefit some well-deserving charity - your suggestions welcome! Also, my pal Anne Shirley (her real name ;-) ...) talked to me about a charity that helps dear little kids who suffer from cancer (how tragic is that?) ... and one of the fund-raising efforts involves folks who raise moola/pesos by shaving their heads. Soooooooooo, given the fact that I am going to lose big chunks of rapidly greying hair to radiation anyway, and my hubby owes me one (i.e. by taking a big ass razor to my head), I'm thinking - what the hell? Why not make a difference at the same time as fulfilling my lifelong fantasy of being full-on, sexy-assed, glistening, BALD? Soooo, stay tuned for details on how I am going to hit you up for cash. Please and thank you. :-)
And ... last note before I sign off for tonight - a) you folks all rock and b) I will never attempt to edit a post in the middle of the night (bad idea). Keeping it short and sweet tonight - more tomorrow (especially on the drugs and shit that I have to take - YEAH!) ... sending love, bone-crushing hugs and unbelievable reciprocal support/love back to you ALL! Mio Marito and me extend mille, mille grazie for everything!!!
Tonight's closing courtesy of Uncle K ...(thanks KK) xoxoxo
Radiating Love xoxoox
Cancerella (and Schifoman aka The Soon-To-Be-Barber)
xoxoxoox
Hopefully this comment will go through. Been trying since you started to get on....
ReplyDeleteLove the lamb.... we all need to be reminded of sweetness and innocence....
Can't wait for you to be donning the T-shirt! Love P
Dearest Patsy - thanks for your sweet note and kind words, as always ...and welcome back! Hope you had a faaaaabulous time in Mexico and we will definitely be there next time! We were with you in spirit. :-)
DeleteAnd I am stoked about the t-shirt!! :-) Want one? :-)
xoxox
Loved the installment! I liked the minimal segues and parentheses.
ReplyDeleteYour 'from the heart' distillations and proclamations are truely you. Not that your stream of consciousness writings are not you also. I love the balance of the two!
This is really a journey!
Thanks Bud! :-) The journey is a journey of many facets ....emotional, physical, metaphysical, spiritual, psychological....and literary of sorts!...which also feeds the emotional and spiritual facets ....and so the cycle continues and overlaps and so on and so on.... :-)
DeleteI am so so thankful that you are with me on this journey, my one true love ....I just could not imagine doing this without you by my side .... xoxoxo