The other key difference today was that there were absolutely no tears. I am so grateful to all of you fine folks who commented on my post, emailed me, Face Timed me (and told me I looked like I had a bad hair cut - a very accurate and funny! - statement) and said to just go for it; the shaving bit, that is. I then ran across an article on the F**K Cancer site on Facebook and lo and behold, the timing was eerie indeed. This user-generated site is for folks who have either dealt with cancer or have loved ones who are dealing with it, and today there was a request out to the fine folks that read like this: "To pre-shave or not pre-shave; that is the question a Cancer F**ker is looking for help with before she starts treatment". Naturally, consumed with curiosity and thinking "hmmm ... someone with a similar plight!", I read all 125 or so comments and discovered that most folks had very similar comments and thoughts; specifically, that when they were confronted with the same circumstance, they just went for it and their advice to this particular gal who was posing the question should as well. "Get that Mohawk you've always wanted. Get that GI Jane cut. Shave your head. Just do it!" And the most enlightening and empowering piece of these posts was the fervor with which these cancer survivors stated that by doing these things, by taking control, that it's the equivalent of giving The Big C a huge middle finger and saying "F**K YOU". So, that's what I'm going to do. And hell, I don't have to go to work for a few weeks and I never did the Mohawk thing as a teenager, so WTF, right? And ... why not now - in middle age? A true middle finger to all kinds of things! YEAH! I'm stoked!
So, haircuts ... what do you think? Too radical? ;-)
And in the meantime, this is my bald spot (oy VEY! My ear looks freakin' GINORMOUS!!@! and my grooooooooooooovy wig (thanks KL!!) :-)
Sending love and hugs and many thanks to all of you for your encouragement - as always! - and at this particularly emotional juncture, all the more appreciated ... thank you. Tonight's sign off is courtesy of my pal LA, as you have all truly been traveling with me along this journey and I thank you all, from the bottom of my heart, for that ... hugs and love.
Viaggio con me,
Cancerella (soon to be Mohawkerella), Buderello-My-Hubby-Driver (just in the short term)-Support-Extraordinaire, and the Two Felines (oblivious as always ... meow)
xoxoxoxo
Oh, there you are! Lovely. Truly.
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Do you like my groovy hat and wig combo? :-)
DeleteAnd thanks for the kind words....not exactly feeling lovely at the moment but nothing some mascara, Bare Escentuals Mineral Veil (awesome stuff), some eyeshadow and some eyebrow pencil won't cure. That, and a hat, until I can get that rocking hair cut.
:-)
xoxo
I'm glad you put it out there that your ear looks ginormous, because that's exactly what I was thinking...maybe I'd better not shave my head...my ears are getting much bigger. I guess you know that ears and noses never stop growing. YUCK!!! Anyway, enough about me. I think you're looking way too demure in that peace out hat...you better rock it out when you get the girl with the dragon tattoo cut...no Betty Boop poses. It just won't work!
ReplyDeleteThe bald patch isn't that bad...can't you just do a comb over or stand really close to a long haired friend in a windstorm?
I think it must be bed time...I'm being sillier than usual. I hope this gives you a chuckle when you're eating your All Bran...talk about suffering! How do you eat that crap?!
xoxoxo K
It's reassuring to know that I'm in good company in the "Oh my GAWD! Are my ears getting HUGE or is it just me??" department. Personally, I blame it on the camera angle (you have a good point though on the YUCK factor; i.e. that ears and noses continue to grow. No wonder folks get plastic surgery. Hmmmm... a treat to myself when this shit is over perhaps?)
DeleteAnd yes, you're right about the demure pose. What the hell was I thinking?? I should have had peace signs and middle fingers and the like. I had just gotten back from having my head toasted, so probably bad timing on my part. In fact, definitely bad timing. And I will definitely rock it out in my Mohawk and GI Jane do's - thanks, Drill Sergeant Labou!! :-) (thanks for kicking my ass there - seriously - I needed that!)
And as for the bald patch - it is a mild comb over of sorts. I will upload another pic ce soir as the bald spot extends a little further up my head ... and your suggestion to stand close to a long-haired friend in a windstorm is both clever and practical - the CHA in you. More importantly though, I HOWLED!! Very funny!!
And please know that every time I eat All Bran now, I will think of you fondly and sprinkle some Corn Pops on there in your honour! :-)
LOVE you boatloads - and thanks for the groooooooooooovy hat and the innumerable giggles, as always. :-) :-)
xoxoxoxoxoxox
Bleach the tips of the mohawk and then die it smurf blue. Totally hawt.
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Oooooohhhhhh .... yeah ... I love that idea .... thanks!!!
DeleteMUAH right back at you Darling!!! xoxoxooxx
I am hoping the same best effort from you in the future as well. In fact your creative writing skills has inspired me. Vinanza Grape
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